Nothing was true but everything felt real.

by Not Sure

27 November 2022


                What if everything we have ever been told about anything was a lie?  What if everything we thought we knew turned out to be based on false constructs and is up for grabs?  What could we hold on to?  How can we navigate if the map itself is a fiction?

                You want to make someone angry quickly?  Here’s a time-saver for you.  Suggest that maybe they don’t know everything.  The person who gets their news from authorized sources will laugh at you if you tell them we’re living in a tightly controlled matrix, a false reality. 

                The person who gets their information from one of dozens of alternative sources may only recently have begun to question the mainstream narrative, but just as quickly as their questioning began, it has ended, because they’ve latched on to a custom-made alternate universe where all conspiracies have been exposed.  It’s the Jews.  It’s the Jesuits.  It’s the Satan-worshipping paedophiles.  It’s the Deep State.  It’s the WEF.  It’s Bill Gates.

                Last week’s Redux was an excerpt from Alan Watt’s talk on February 14, 2021. He said, “You are your own champion.  You have to make decisions and you have to speak out. You have to do it. Leave it to others and believe you me, most of the others will be put out by the wolves themselves and you'll never figure that out. That's how it's been up until now.   People don’t like to hear that most “voices” that claim to speak on your behalf are disinformation, plain and simple.

                You leap to the defense of the disinfo jockey.  Why?  Because what will you hold on to otherwise? 

                Alan from that February 14, 2021 talk.  And it's sad to say, I keep saying this, and folk won't wisen up to it, I understand this too.  But a good chunk of what you see there that's put out to be popular is actually part of…intelligence agency front groups, set out there to do it.  Just like the color revolutions use them across the world, have been doing it for many, many years, they do the same thing at home as well. And it's up to you, you know, if you can discern or not discern. But there are telltale signs quite often you see…The folk who run the world don't sit and wait for things to happen. They plan ahead, of every move they give to you do and to make sure that they always have dominance over everything. Full-spectrum dominance, folks, also means…creating an environment of counterintelligence.  By adapting to your intelligence and what you're putting out as intelligence news and facts, then countering it by adopting intelligence and then countering it through other techniques of ridiculing it in fact, which ends up ridiculing the facts others are actually putting out there. It's an old technique.  It works very well.  Very easy to do too, really, if you're well-funded, y’know.”

                The word discern means to recognize with your eyes, or with some other sense, or to know or recognize something mentally.  People ask me what I think of so-and-so.  Are they legitimate?  Controlled opposition?  Counterintelligence?  Research is interesting and crucial but there will always be so much we cannot know and without a staff and unlimited resources, we are all left with no option but to do as Alan suggested and look for telltale signs and use our own discernment.  I will add to that, “Don’t need to be right.  Don’t need to wrap up your version of reality in a neat little box with a bow that says, ‘I know exactly what’s going on.’ “



                Soap operas got their name because many years ago these long-running daytime radio and later television serials were sponsored by soap manufacturers.  There was a familiar cast of characters, and you could root for the young lovers and hate the villains and vixens.  My grandmother watched a soap called Days of Our Lives which started in 1965 and is still going.  The opening image was an hourglass.  “Like sands through the hourglass, so are the days of our lives.”  One summer, my folks dropped us children off with Mema for a couple of weeks.  I was about eight or nine years old and didn’t really enjoy being parked in front of the TV, especially to watch a show about old people.  But it was required viewing at Mema’s house.

                On Monday, a set of actors were introduced, and I saw all about their little problems.  Then on Tuesday, an entirely different set of actors were shown, with all their petty dramas.  Come Wednesday, the first set of people were back, but the thing that annoyed my restless, childish mind was that on Wednesday those actors talked about what had bothered them Monday.  Almost nothing happened.  On Thursday, Tuesday’s actors reappeared and once again, nothing happened.

                To please Mema, I tried to sit quietly, but this was a painfully boring part of each day.  The following year, we all went back to my grandmother’s house, but this time my folks were there too.  Everything stopped for Days of Our Lives.  A year later and the drama seemed to be in the same place as when I’d left it.  I said to my mother, “Nothing has happened!  This is exactly what they were doing a year ago!  I can’t believe it!”  Mema shushed me.  Mom squeezed my knee, and I sat staring at the television in total disbelief that adults would watch such rubbish, and worse, chat about it later as if it was real.




                I always remember that brief childhood excursion into the world of the soap opera whenever I am looking at anything that is put out for us to follow.  We’re given melodrama with emotive topics.  Politicians wave their hands and promise to drain the swamp.  Old Orange Hair announced he’s back in the ring for 2024.  This week, the rapper disgraced for his anti-Semitic remarks and Tweets announced he too will run for President of the U.S.A.  As of this writing, his campaign manager will be a character right out of central casting, whose fall from grace stemmed from his 2017 comment that a relationship between an adult male and a teenage boy could be “beneficial.”  The fashion label Balenciaga cut ties with the disgraced rapper last month, but now they find themselves being criticized for their recent ad campaign that looks an awful lot like child pornography.

                Too bad Old Orange Hair will be running against “The Rapper Formerly Known As”, because he could offer the Rapper a bit of advice on how to overcome bad press.  After all, Old Orange Hair survived that video where he bragged about groping women without their consent.  Days of Our Lives.


                This week’s Redux is from Alan’s September 30, 2018 talk entitled “Control over Minions from Ancient Times Meant Studying Prey then Disabling Minds.”  He described the system that we’re in as “very old.”  Plato’s great uncle Solon went to study in Egypt and was told “You Greeks don’t even know how old you are.”  At some point, the controlling class began to write things down and the loss of memory was lamented, as only by writing nothing down, no notes, just memorization, could secrecy be maintained.

                This week, I’ve been reading CHAOS, Charles Manson, the CIA, and the Secret History of the Sixties by journalist Tom O’Neill.  Part of his research led him to the CIA’s Project MKUltra, the agency’s illegal human research on techniques of torture and brainwashing and identifying which types of drugs might be employed.  The program used numerous ways to manipulate brain function including psychoactive drugs, sensory deprivation and hypnosis.  MKUltra ran from 1953 until 1973, and in that final year, the agency’s director ordered all documentation destroyed.  A relatively small number of documents survived that order.  Most of what the public now knows about the program was revealed by the U.S. Congress’s Church Committee and also Gerald Ford’s United States President's Commission on CIA activities within the United States, otherwise known as the Rockefeller Commission, which is ironic as David Rockefeller was quite liberal in funding the CIA, particularly their black ops budget.          

                O’Neill wrote about a shadowy figure, Reeve Whitson, who was very secretive, yet had made claims that he had been at Sharon Tate’s home after the murders and prior to the arrival of police.  The interesting thing about Whitson according to those who knew him, was he seemed to possess a photographic memory.

                In this Redux, Alan talked about how MKUltra wasn’t just concerned with depatterning the brain, breaking down all associations and destroying memories, but reorganizing someone’s mind to rebuild the mind in the image of the scientist or the controller.  Sex, drugs and rock and roll was one important aspect, to break patterns of family and male/female bonding.  MKUltra was for all of us, the public.  Psychic driving is repetition, repetition, repetition.  Slogans, songs, memes.

                Repetition, repetition, repetition.  Suddenly everyone in the “alternate” world is an expert in mRNA technology.  They know exactly how graphene oxide will work with 5G.  “There is no such thing as a virus.”  “Louis Pasteur was a 33rd degree Mason.”  The hesitant warriors know something is wrong but laugh at anyone who points to depopulation as the endgame.  Those who are “really in the know” all of the sudden have a quite a profound knowledge of eugenics and Thomas Malthus.  I say that they’ve arrived late to the party, and they’re underdressed.  They’ve looked at what is truly a horror show with vaccine injuries and deaths, egregious loss of rights and they’ve latched on to some tailor-made explanations.  Naturally, there’s a lot of truth in that corn, but it’s the 5% poison that kills the rat.  That is disinfo.  It’s just that little steer in the wrong direction.

                Only you can discern for you, but this I offer you from the Church Committee’s findings on the CIA which they published in 1976:


The CIA currently maintains a network of several hundred foreign individuals around the world who provide intelligence for the CIA and at times attempt to influence opinion through the use of covert propaganda. These individuals provide the CIA with direct access to a large number of newspapers and periodicals, scores of press services and news agencies, radio and television stations, commercial book publishers, and other foreign media outlets.”


                At the 1991 Bilderberg meeting in Baden, Germany, David Rockefeller said, “We are grateful to the Washington Post, The New York Times, Time Magazine and other great publications whose directors have attended our meetings and respected their promises of discretion for almost forty years. It would have been impossible for us to develop our plan for the world if we had been subjected to the lights of publicity during those years. But, the world is now more sophisticated and prepared to march towards a world government. The supranational sovereignty of an intellectual elite and world bankers is surely preferable to the national auto-determination practiced in past centuries.”


                Do you really think that there are no intelligence assets in the alternative media? 


                I did a little search engine experiment today.  I typed the words “Died Suddenly” on the search bar and then changed the date parameters to “Jan. 1, 2019 – Nov. 30, 2019.”  I came up with a stack of stories of folk who had died suddenly, quite a few of them young and apparently healthy.  Several under the age of twenty.  Then I tried that exercise with the dates “Jan. 1, 2010 – Dec. 30, 2010” and again from “Jan. 1, 2001 – Nov. 15, 2001.”  Each time, I found plenty of examples of people who were going about their business and dropped dead.

                That exercise occurred to me because several people sent me links to the premiere of the film by that name, and the emotive and evocative title got me wondering what I might find searching those words, or SADS or myocarditis, and then searching older dates.

                These topics too become part of the soap opera we’re given for daily consumption.  The debunkers go to work immediately on any attempt we make to explain what is happening.  “People have been dying suddenly forever.”  “SADS is a condition that has been recognized for many years.”  (True enough, I guess, but I never heard it mentioned before 2022.  Me and my pesky memory.)  It is only by guarding our own minds, by cherishing our consciousness and sentience that we can remember what we have lived through and witnessed.  Even a temporary lapse of consciousness renders us helpless in the face of an intelligence machine that depends on our trust in order to work.  If Bill Gates is a god according to CNN, and someone in the alternate media shows a clip of him gleefully describing how vaccines will help reduce the world’s population, then that someone in the alternative media is a white hat wearing hero, right?  It’s that simple.

                Without endorsing anything, I will supply some links and let you do a bit of sleuthing and discerning.  In the middle of the Giant Intelligence Machine are still sincere voices looking for answers and using their knowledge and training to pursue those answers.  Because no matter how much disinfo can be found within the “truth” sites, the world is not as the mainstream presents it.  The excess deaths are not because a lot of people died of Covid!  The experimental gene therapy is not “safe and effective.”  I still have an intact memory and never has there been any date parameter in my lifetime when so many seemingly healthy young athletes just died suddenly.




                A few things to point out As the World Turns.  Two weeks ago, the G20 held their summit in Bali and made a joint declaration to produce a global standard on proof of vaccination for international travel.  Ontario (Canada) College of Physicians recommends medication and psychotherapy to encourage covid vaccination.  Alan Watt often talked about the Soviet Union and their use of psychiatry to classify political dissidents as mentally ill. 

                Also in Canada, under their Medical Assistance in Dying (MAiD) babies born with disabilities are now being considered as a category that should have access to state-run suicide.  (As if a baby can decide to commit suicide…)

                Vaccine injury and death are very worthy of outrage and spotlight, as is state sponsored killing of babies with disabilities.  I was discussing Canada’s MAiD program at lunch yesterday and my very elderly aunt who was already married during World War II said, “That’s what Hitler was doing.  Killing the unfit.”  She’s never listened to Alan Watt, but she does have a memory.


                These are just a few of the topics that Alan covered in this talk:  We Live in a Very Old System - Empires and the Understanding of Human Nature - City-States are the Beehives - Pharmaceutical Drugs - Legalizing Marijuana - Eugenics, Winners and Losers - MK-ULTRA, Psychic Driving - Sex, Drugs, Rock and Roll - Theo Adorno, Frankfurt School - Destruction of Family Unit - Youth Culture - Soap Opera Drama of Politics - Canada and Marijuana Industry.

                As I was reading CHAOS, I kept thinking of the folks I hear from who use drugs and alcohol as some form of escapism, a temporary relief from feelings of helplessness or rage against this system.  I’m sure nobody likes a temperance zealot but it would be so good if all that depression, that anger that gets turned inward and nursed by the booze, could be funnelled into a rage that was directed like a laser at the deviants who maintain this panopticon.

                Alan talked about the unnaturalness of the city, but I simply ran out of time this week and couldn’t do any research on that topic.  I was trying to write this piece, but I kept hitting a wall and so I took a break and read some emails as I hadn’t had a chance to do that in a couple of days.  Someone sent me a long email yesterday about Smart Cities, Agenda 21/Agenda 2030 and had included some interesting links such as Cities 'must become car-free to survive'. 

                I returned to my writing and hit the wall again.  Back to the email and this just came in, ‘SMART CITIES’ Worldwide Being Converted Into ‘Open Concentration Camps,’ Says Ex-Silicon Valley Engineer Turned Whistleblower.  The sender commented that she had not yet viewed the embedded video but the article certainly covered everything Alan talked about for years.  A few minutes later, she sent this video, Permanent Climate Lockdowns: The "15 Minute Cities" Are Coming.  I really wanted a break from writing so I watched the video.  This one made me laugh at first because the bearded woodsman promoted his channel and website in part through the sale of merchandise like his Viking Bushcrafter coffee mugs.  I don’t object.  Even wary woodsmen have to survive this system somehow.

                The Oxfordshire City Council wants to divide the city of Oxford into six ’15 minute’ districts.  The 15 minute city idea is one in which all your necessities can be obtained by walking or cycling fifteen minutes from your home.  The trouble with the council’s proposal is that if any of Oxford’s 150,000 residents drive outside of their designated district more than 100 days a year, he or she could be fined £70. 

                Then in one of those synchronous little things that happen sometimes, the very next email I read was from a different sender who wanted to let me know about a website focused on AI called Future of Humanity Institute.  FHI is a multidisciplinary research institute at the University of Oxford. Academics at FHI bring the tools of mathematics, philosophy and social sciences to bear on big-picture questions about humanity and its prospects. The Institute is led by Founding Director Professor Nick Bostrom.” 

                Nick Bostrom is a name I’ve heard but I needed to look him up again to refresh my memory (which is not photographic.)  His book, Superintelligence: Paths, Dangers, Strategies was recommended by Bill Gates and Elon Musk.  In Bostrom’s view of how humans can control AI, we keep the AI boxed up and separate from humans, treating it like an oracle, asking it carefully designed questions and limiting its ability to manipulate humans.

                Another link came in on transhumanism, Elevating the Human Condition -- Advancing science and technology for a better future.  The organization is Humanity + and amongst their Executive Advisors is Aubrey de Grey, a British researcher on aging who claims that the first human who will live to be a thousand years old has already been born, and Martine Rothblatt, who worked on the Human Genome Project.  New York magazine said of Rothblatt, The Highest Paid CEO in America Used to Be a Man, because Martine came out as a transgender in 1994 and has since been an advocate for transgender rights.  Martine was also an early convert to Gerard K. O’Neill’s “High Frontier” space colonization plan.

                It all made me think of an Arthur C. Clarke book that Alan mentioned in this talk, Childhood’s End.  The Overlords arrive from another planet and at first their intentions seem benevolent.  They bring an end to hunger and war and for a time there is utopia on earth, that is until their true intentions are revealed:  The Overlords serve the Overmind, a vast cosmic intelligence.  During their time on Earth, the Overlords have helped all the children “evolve” until they are no longer human but have become a single intelligence ready to join the Overmind.


                Nothing about Charles Manson leads me to think of him as a particularly literate man but he named his third son, Valentine Michael Manson, after his favorite book, Stranger in a Strange Land by Robert Heinlein.  The novel revolves around a man raised by Martians on Mars who returns to Earth as a young man.




                In this talk Alan said that it wasn’t that easy to teach someone in this day and age, because people have a hard time keeping their minds still enough to understand what’s being said.  They’re massively overstimulated through a bombardment of constant babble.  Entertainment.  It’s part of the technique of control.  There’s an old saying, be still… be still.  It’s like the Old Testament, is to be still and know that I am God. Same kind of idea.  And the New Testament as well. The technique, you’ve got to be still once in a while, you’ve got to do it. And when you’re still your mind will crowd, naturally, with all your little worries of the day. That’s why you love to distract yourself, so you don’t think too much. And that’s why your masters and those who own you want you to constantly be bombarded and be distracted too, then you won’t think too much. You’re quite safe if you don’t think too much.  You let everyone else do your thinking for you by the data that’s thrown at you through entertainment and different other guises.”


                Seems to be something about us humans that like a story with a beginning, middle and end.  Mysteries are uncomfortable unless we are able to solve them without too much effort.  Poor Tom O’Neill set out to write an article about Manson for a magazine assignment.  More than twenty years later, he hadn’t written the article and solving the mystery had become a full-blown obsession.  Our controllers who have studied us -- let’s just call them The Overlords.  Why not? – know how much we humans want answers. 

                You’re going to fight me on this one, but what passes for “alternative journalism” these days is mostly entertainment.  It’s part of the control mechanism.  You comment on videos, Tweet your outrage and share the latest video that “exposes” everything, but really it’s just interactive drama.  If you can tolerate the truth that you have been deceived since birth, you might not have to buy the ready-made explanations from the first conman or grifter who shows up on your Twitter feed.  Chances are that a lot of “intelligence” went into the creation of that explanation and an army of assets are making it feel real and plausible, authentic, and urgent.  It’s so much better than an old-fashioned soap opera. 


© Not Sure


Additional reading/viewing:


G20 leaders declare global digital health network


Singapore opens first physical 6G lab


6G: What It Is & When to Expect It


AT&T begins testing and deployment of discreet 5G radios on city street lamp posts


Our Alliance is creating smart city governance - World Economic Forum


‘SMART CITIES’ Worldwide Being Converted Into ‘Open Concentration Camps,’ Says Ex-Silicon Valley Engineer Turned Whistleblower


Cities 'must become car-free to survive'


Permanent Climate Lockdowns: The "15 Minute Cities" Are Coming


15-Minute City


The ‘15-Minute City’: What They Are And How To Build Them


The madness of the ‘15-minute city’


Oxford set to cut its famous traffic jams by degrees


Future of Humanity Institute


Elevating the Human Condition - Advancing science and technology for a better future.


Answering the critics of "Died Suddenly"


Four videos to watch


My response to the Documentary: Died Suddenly


Dr Mike Yeadon: Why the Depopulation Agenda is Real and What We Can Do About It


Dr. Ryan Cole: Sudden Adult Death Syndrome and Covid Shots


Dr James Thorp


Ontario College of Physicians recommends ‘medication’ and ‘psychotherapy’ to encourage COVID vaccination


Tucker Carlson Tonight 2022 11 23, Canadian State Sanctioned Murder


Babies born with disabilities being considered for assisted suicide - Canada


Medical Assistance in Dying Activity Book


The Vaccine Is a Virus